I can’t breathe.. Why am I having a hard time breathing?? I tried to get my medicine in my cabinet pero sobrang ang weak ng katawan ko.. pero sinubukan ko pa rin bumangon. Siyempre nakuha ko yung gamot ko, pagkakuha ko bumagsak ako sa bed.. SaRa yah..my body.. it’s weak.. my breathing.. why is it hard to breathe?
I dialed SaRa’s number. She’s not answering her phone! SaRayah joo goo lae?? Why aren’t you answering your phone? You asked me to call you when I feel like I’m dying. Since she not answering my call I dialed Kirby’s number. Don’t ask why I didn’t call Kenji. [joo goo lae? = wanna die?]
[Hello?]
“Tell SaRa.. I’m dying..” I quickly hung up as I catch my breath.
After 4 minutes
“ATHENA!! ASAN KA?!” may nag bukas ng door ng room ko, wait, I didn’t call Kenji.. right?
I looked at that person..
“Lucas..?”
“Na-dial mo yung number ko, wala na akong time pa para puntahan si Sara sa school niyo kaya dito na ko dumiresto.” Hinawakan niya yung forehead ko “Ang taas ng lagnat mo! tara, dadalhin na kita sa hospital.” Binuhat niya ako papunta sa kotse niya.
Habang papunta na kami sa hospital, napansin kong sobrang worried siya, nag mamadali siya sa pagddrive niya.
“Tawagan mo na si Sara..” I dialed her number again but failed
“She’s not answering..”
“Si Grace, try mo.”
Luckily. She picked up, but the call suddenly ended.
After 5 minutes Sara called. Good lord! I told her that I’m going to the hospital and asked her to tell my parents. She forgot to ask me which hospital, I forgot to tell her too.
“Lucas.. Thanks sa pag bantay mo sakin.. nakakahiya tuloy sayo..”
“Ano ka ba. Wala yun noh. Buti nalang at nadala kagad kita sa hospital, kung hinde lagot na. Pero nakakatuwa, parang trangkaso lang tapos ang daming test na pina-take sayo noh?”
I smiled, “Oo nga eh. Ano kaya sinasabi ng doctor sa parents ko? Baka naman mamamatay na ko!” I joked.
“Wag ka ngang ganyan! Wala lang yan, stress lang siguro or mababaw na sakit. Basta. Hinde yan malala. Sabi rin ng doctor bukas ng umaga pwede ka ng lumabas.” He patted my head then I smiled at him.
I wonder what Kenji’s doing.. I’m with the guy I didn’t choose.. life’s irony.
Pumasok bigla si Kuya Nathan sa room, “Lucas, salamat sa pag bantay mo sa kapatid ko ha. Kung hinde dahil sayo siguro mas tatagal pa siya dito.”
“Wala yun. Sige, maiwan ko na muna kayo.” Nag nod si Nathan tapos sumabas na si Lucas. Pag labas niya pumasok na rin parents ko. Nag smile sila sakin.. pero parang worried parin sila.. bakit kaya? Are they not contented with the results? May problem ba? I hope not..
Sunday, October 22, 2006 1:30 pm
“SARA!! I’m home!!” I shouted as I enter the house
“OMO! Gwaen chah na yo???” [OMG are you ok?]
“Nan Gwaen cha na, unni! Bogoshipo!” then we hugged. Yeah, losers. [nan gwaen cha na = I’m ok; unni = older sister]
“Where’s ahjooma and ahjusshi??” [aunt and uncle]
“They went back to Korea, they said something came up that’s why they already have to leave the country.”
She nodded. She asked me about the hospital thingy, I told her everything that she has to know. She asked me why I didn’t call Kenji instead of calling Lucas, well… I said I was so weak to dial his number. She told me that he’s quite sad about it (me not calling him). Psh. Sad? Sad my @ss. He didn’t even bother calling me either!
“YA! It’s Jigs and Grace’s 19th birthday! We’re going to celebrate it daw!”
“Arayo. I have to talk to Kenji rin eh.” [i know]
We got dressed and went to the Mall. Of course, the driver sent us there.
Pagkadating namin sa may mall nakita ko na si Jigs na may kasamang guy.. familiar yung face niya.. nakaupos sa may starbucks, nag yoyosi.. may nakapalibot na girls! YA THAT’S MY BOYFRIEND!!! [Ya = hey]
Inayos ko yung damit ko tapos nag lakad papalapit kay Kenji, habang nag lalakad nakasmile ako, siyempre pa-cute..
“Kenji Oppa..” I said in my sweetest voice.
“Oppa?” tapos napatingin sakin si Sara, Kenji at yung mga babae sa paligid niya. I smiled at them.
Kumaway ako sa kanila, siyempre yung pa-cute, “Annyong! I missed you babe..” again, sweet parin pagkasabi ko tapos nag smile ako.
“Ay. Taken na pala siya. Sayang.”
“Oo nga eh. Tara na nga.” sagot nung dalawang babae
Nagalisan bigla sa paligid ni Kenji yung mga babae. Psh. Buti naman. Hinde ba nila alam na high school lang si Kenji?? Mukha na silang college noh! Pati.. may girlfriend na siya!!
“BABO YA!! JUGULAE?!” I joked. Siyempre may pout effect.. pero nag smile din ako. hinde ko pwedeng sirain araw namin. [it can also be -> jeug eul lae- joog ool lae= wanna die?]
“Did you just call him oppa?? and you just called me unni a while ago.. what’s wrong with you?”
“Psh. Mind your own business.” I grinned. “Kenji, namiss mo ba ako?”
He’s giving me the silent treatment!! Ano na naman bang ginawa ko at ginaganito niya ako? “Ya.. I’m sorry for not calling you.. I was in the hospital..”
Nanlaki yung eyes niya bigla. So hinde niya alam? Sara didn’t tell him.. good.
“Nag punta ako ng hospital kasi.. sobrang mataas na yung fever ko.. tapos inatake pa ako ng matinding asthma.. kaya yun.” Nagsmile ako sa kanya, “siguro naman excused ako diba? dahil sayo kaya ako nagkakasakit eh.” I joked
“Bakit ako? wala naman akong ginagawa eh.”
“Yun na nga yun eh. wala ka ngang ginagawa pero nasasaktan mo pa rin ako, weird right?” nag smile siya tapos he patted my head.
So ayun, bati na kami! ^_^ he's being considerate! ^^,
Dumating na si Grace with… her boyfriend?
“Unni.. do you know him? Have you seen him before??” she shrugged. But her face looks weird.. that guy looks so familiar.. oh well.
“Guys, meet Gino. He’s my boyfriend.” She linked arms with Gino tapos nag smile siya sa amin. I looked at Sara, again, she’s making weird expressions.
He really looks familiar.. have I seen him before?? I looked at Kenji, mukhang ok naman siya.. bakit ganun?
Si Jigs being the Kuya, medyo naging mabait naman siya. Of course, hinde na sila ganun nag aaway, kasi lagot si Jigs kay Sara pag inaway niya si Grace.
Nagikot kami sa mall, tapos nanood ng The Prestige. Siyempre, being slow.. tanong ako ng tanong kay Kenji hanggang sa nairita na siya! weirdo!
After ng movie, nagpunta kami sa house ng lola nila Jigs at Grace, pinag handa kasi sila ng lola nila. As expected, malaki yung bahay. Sa AAV pa! (ayala alabang village)
Nakita ko na lang sa may garden may naka set-up na videoke na. magic sing!! Omg. I want one!! Siyempre kumain muna kami, tapos tsaka namin pagaagawan yung magic sing.
Na-meet na rin namin yung parents nila Jigs, si Sara pinakilala ni Jigs bilang girlfriend. Wait, may na-miss ba akong event dito? Si Grace naman pinakilala rin yung boyfriend niyang si Gino, pero parang kilala na nila yung Gino kaya parang wala lang. hehe!
Of course, mawawala ba yung drinking session nila? Psh. Lahat sila umiinom, lalo na si Grace. Tingin ko nag-LQ sila nung Gino kasi bigla na lang nawala yung guy eh. Hinde rin nila pinatawad yung magic sing, sige lang! mag sawa kayo!
Hinde ko na kaya yung urge! I want to drink.. so I did. Siyempre pa-konti konti muna.. hanggang sa nakaka 4 na bote ng beer na ko. Ng hinde nila alam ^_^v
“HOY!!”
I looked at my gangster wanna be boyfriend. While smiling I said, “Wae yo?” [why?]
“Kakalabas mo lang ng ospital tapos umiinom ka na kaagad?! Bawal yan sayo!!” kinuha niya yung glass ng beer ko. HEY I JUST WANTED TO CELEBRATE WITH YOU GUYS!
“Hey.. don’t be such a meanie..”
“Oo nga Athena. Wag ka na munang uminom. Makakasama pa yan sayo eh. pati nakaka apat na bote ka na rin. tama na yun.” First time akong kinausap ni Kirby ngayong araw. Simula nung nasa mall kami hinde niya ako kinakausap, parang ang tahimik niya lang.
Nag smile siya kay Kenji “Kampay!” tapos ininom niya yung beer niya from the bottle. Wow. Thanks Kirby sa pangiinggit mo.
“Pwede naman daw akogn uminom eh! tinanong ko sa doctor. Sabi niya pwede na raw. Now give me back my beer.” I lied.
Kenji sighed then gave my beer back. Good boyfriend.
Naka ilang bote na rin kami ng beer. Nag stop na ko sa 6. hinde ko na kaya yung lasa. Si Grace halatang lasing na, si Sara naman nakaka 3 na beer pa lang. siyempre yung tatlong lalaki parang nag cocontest! Ewan ko ba. Mga lasengero.
“Tara ikot lang tayo sandali sa village.” Hinawakan ni Kenji yung kamay ko tapos hinila niya ako palabas ng bahay. Psh. Still the same, still treats me like a dog.
Again like in the previous chapter, tahimik kami pareho. WALANG NAG SASALITA. Kung mag aaway lang ulit kami, tatakbo na lang ulit ako pabalik ng bahay ng lola nila Jigs!
Kung ayaw niyang mag salita, mauuna na ako. I was about to open my mouth “Athena.” Ke--what? Wala pa akong sinasabi..
I looked at him, he smiled at me. Stop it babo. You’re making me blush.
“Potek. Nag smile lang ako sayo tapos nagblush ka na kaagad?! Wow. Ganun mo ba ako ka-mahal?” he was like touching his chin.
Oo nga.. ganun ko na ba siya ka-mahal? Nung nasa hospital ako.. sabi ni Sang Min oppa, na Kenji daw ako ng Kenji.. kahit tulog ako! >.<
‘Kenji.. nuh moo saranghae..’ [I love you TOO MUCH..] I said to myself
“Athena?” he poked my forehead lightly “Ya”
“Ah, Mi an..” [Oh, sorry..]
“Halika nga dito.” He pulled me into a hug. “Sorry kung ang cold ko sayo nung Thursday.. masyado lang akong napikon sa nangyari.. Hinde ko kayang sabihin yung totoo.. ayokong masaktan ka..”
“Psh. Mas ok na yung masaktan ako noh at least alam ko yugn tunay na nafefeel mo.” he pulled away and looked at me
“Hinde naman kasi mawawala yun eh.. matagal naging kami. So I still care for her. May konting feelings, pero hinde naman ibig sabihin nun na ganun ko pa siya ka mahal.” Butterflies! HE’S GIVING ME BUTTERFLIES! “Kaya lang naman ako nagalid kasi pag tinanong yung pesteng tanong na yun, tuloy tuloy na. hanggang sa mag kakalabuan na yung sitwasyon, gets mo? pero ang panget kasi pinangunahan kita.. hinde ko alam na, hinde ka pala ganun.. mianhae..” [Sorry..]
“Naiintindihan ko naman eh.. Ayaw ko lang yung mag sisinungaling ka sa akin. Ayoko rin yung bigla kang nagagalit tapos hinde ko alam kung bakit. Alam mo yun? ang pangit nung feeling eh. parang, WOW WHAT DID I DO? And to think that, almost perfect na yung araw natin..” I should’ve not said that lying part. Baka mag sinungaling lang rin ako sa kanya sa future eh. crap.
“Promise hinde na ko mag sisinungaling..”
“Yaksok?” [promise?]
“Yaksok.” Tapos nag pinky promise kami.
So wala na yung issue nung Thursday, I’m happy. Tinanong niya sa akin yung resulta nung mga test, sabi ko stress lang. tapos yung weather. Siyempre, hinde nawala yung pag-nag niya sa akin. Pero ok lang. hinde na ako makikipag talo pa sa kanya. Hinde na kakayanin pa ng heart ko ang makipag talo sa kanya. I just love him too much.
Papasok na ako sa loob ng Bala Mansion (Jigs’ and Grace’s family name) when Kenji pulled my hand and said..
“I love you..”
I was.. surprised.. the first I LOVE YOU from him. i mean.. yes he said ‘I cant breathe’ meaning I love you, pero siymepre, iba pa rin yung I LOVE YOU.
I smiled at him, hugged him then whispered, “I love you too.”
Pumasok kami ng Bala Mansion, ng naka holding hands. *blushes*
Pag pasok namin, nakita ko si Grace naka smile sa amin, hawak yung mic! “..don’t let it burn don’t let it fade…” she coughed “AHAHA! ATHENA! YOUR TURN!!”
“Athena! NO RE HA RA GO!!!” [sing a song]
I shook my head, as an answer. Nababaliw na ba sila!? never pa akong kumanta sa tapat ng mga tao! Sa Korea pwede pa eh.. pero dito!? No way. Lalo na pag english or tagalon. Korean pwede pa eh.
Kenji elbowed me, “Sige na! isa lang.” i pouted, he glared. Psh. I lost.
Tumayo ako tapos kinuha ko yung mic na hawak ni Grace, “I swore, I swore I would be true.. well honey so did you.. So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? was it just a game to you?” they clapped, howled and whatnot
“But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger?”
I’m singing, Linger by The Cranberries. OMG! FOREVER AND EVER BABE! Will he be my forever and ever babe?
“Oh, I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong, But I was wrong. I was wrong. If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie, Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used, But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.”
“GO ATHENA!! WOOOOOOOH!” nagulat siguro sila. jesus. they don’t have to shout. Kenji was like.. O_O I really don’t sing.. hmm..
“And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you. You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha. Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to, Do you have to let it linger?”
I looked at Kenji, he’s soooooo.. ugh. Hot. And I just love the movie Click. “Will you still love me in the morning?” I quoted
We were all looking at him, kahit yung cousins nila Jigs nakatingin sa kanya.
“Un jae na..” then he smiled, “nuh nun?” [unjaena= always; nuh nun= how about u?]
I smiled back and answered.. “young won hee..” [forever]
Un jae na.. young won hee.. jesus. first we have our own ‘I love you’ and now we have our own ‘forever and ever babe’. Siguro next time may ibang dictionary na kami.
“Potek. Dumugo ilong ko! nag alienese silang dalawa!!” humarap si Jigs kay Sara, “WAAAH!!! TRANSLATE MO YUNG SINABI NILA!!” Nag tawanan lahat ng tao dahil kay Jigs. Pinat lang ni Sara yung balikat niya. Aww. Poor Jigs.
“Etoooooo.. ang damot niyo! Sabihin niyo na kasi! Birthday ko naman eh..” naka turo siya sa sarili niya. Naka pout siya tapos nag puppy face. Pffft. She’s drunk.
Sara had no choice but to tell them. As expected, yung reactions nila ay ‘OMG’. What do you expect? Friend nila yung gangster, and I’m dating the gangster, right?
11:23 pm na kami naguwian. Kung wala lang pasok bukas ok lang kahit na dun pa kami matulog and siguro kung hinde kami kasama nila Sara malamang hinde na umuwi yung tatlong lalaki na yun. Wala naman silang sinasanto eh. psh.
Pagdating namin sa bahay, chineck ko kaagad yung computer ko. may nag add sa akin sa MSN, ‘TSSS’ yung screen name niya.
“Tsss? Sino kaya to? Bakit naman tsss yung sn nya? Pft. Whatever.” To my curiosity, I added him…her?
Sang Min oppa messaged me. Pffft. I’m starting to call him Sang Min oppa again. Just because.
SangMin: Athena gong joo, TaeSungie added you. Eodiya?
9:18 pm yung message niya, pero online pa rin siya.. online rin ung TSSS. Tsss.
SL’s Athena: Oppa! I went to Jigs’ and Grace’s party in Alabang.
SangMin: WTF is SL?! Have you added TaeSungah? I just thought that it would be nice for you guys to be ok again..
PSH! Why should I add him?! TO BE OK AGAIN??! My @ss.
SL’s Athena: YA! OPPA! HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN THAT HE FOOLED UR DONGSENG??
SangMin: Ya. Don’t type LIKE THIS! ARA!!! Gusto ko lang kayo maging friends ulit. [ara = I know]
SangMin: Btw, he’s on right now. Talk to him, ok?? be good dongseng! YA! You haven’t answered my question!! WTF IS SL?! It sounds corny.
SL’s Athena: SexyLove. Don’t laugh.
SangMin: WTF?!?! IT IS CORNY!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! LOL LOL LOL
Jesus. kakasabi ko lang na DON’T LAUGH, then he laughed. I have a crazy brother. No, more like a very complicated FAMILY. Weird mom, crazy brother and a strange dad.
SangMin: JALJA DONSENG!! SEXYLOVE'S ATHENA... BWAHAHAH!! SO FUNNY!!
May pahabol pa. Tss. I was about to turn off the monitor when a pop-up came
TSSS: Gong joo yah.. bogoshipo. ^^;;
Gong joo yah..? Si.. Tae Sung oppa lang tumatawag sakin nun.. TSSS… Tae Sung S. Song.. babo. Bakit nakalimutan ko. psh.
SL’s Athena: Bakit?
TSSS: Nothing.. I just.. missed you.
SL’s Athena: Ok. gtg. Bye
Masyadong masaya araw ko ngayon, ayokong masira lang dahil kay Tae Sung oppa. So I turned off the speaker and the monitor. I took a shower tapos nag ready na for bed. Of course, I took my med, baka mapano pa ko. ayoko sa hospital. No no no.
What a day. Kakalabas lang ng hospital tapos nagbati na kami ni Kenji, tapos.. WAAH! Omg. Ang dami masyado. First I love you, first karaoke-ing jesus. had so much fun.
From: ??? [KenJi?]
Nakaka inlab yung gnwa mo knina..
nan nuhrul unjaena… youngwonhee.. saranghalgoya.
- Kenji Sul delos Reyes
He’s making my heart beat faster and faster. *blushes*
Bakit kelangan Korean pa? why not say it in english, or in tagalog?
Binasa ko yung text niya, but in english..
“I’ll love you always.. forever.. Kenji Sul delos Reyes”
Un jae na.. young won hee..?
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